It’s all in the mind.

It’s happened again. I wandered off in real and virtual world and haven’t gotten around to update this space. And like always.. there has been plenty happening in my life..  Life is changing rapidly.. Some pleasant and nice changes.. some stagnant complaints.. It’s a mish mash of it all.. Lot of things have changed and keep changing… And caught in between all these are me and my mind..

A while back.. writing here used to be my most favorite mode of unwinding. Stories.. thoughts.. musings.. the mind worked overtime and came up with the whole post and the fingers just clicked away.. Recently that changed. Writing and for that matter.. thoughts became incoherent.. I realized I was stressing my mind to come up with flows and coherent writing.. I had no choice. It was a question of bread and butter. Even then.. when there were times when I was faced against a wall.. I came here.. poured out on a whim.. ranted about something that made no sense at all.. and was able to get the creative juices flowing.. There were other times when the thought , flow and subject matter.. all were there.. what was missing was the will to put finger to keyboard.

It stuck me that to bring out true emotions and thoughts to the post.. I needed to be in a proper state of mind. I have had this epiphany before too.. Just that real life and responsibilities had taken precedence and the mind was no longer into idle thinking mode. Only when the mind wanders off most posts are written.. Mentally of course..  I don’t actually blame life. I enjoyed this phase too. It taught me a lot of things.

I had a chance to explore a new side of me. All this while I have been a raving foodie.. Enjoying different types of food.. Savouring in the flavours and the textures.. And then.. MasterChef Australia happened.. Little by little this series prodded the cook in me and lo and behold.. I started wielding the ladle in the kitchen. literally. Actually the craze began a bit before MasterChef started.. I blog hopped a bit and found a few food blogs. People have too much time and resources. How else can you explain all those drool worthy pictures and the up-to-the-last-detail recipes? So yeah.. I ran amok in the kitchen for almost 2 months. Whipped up some new and lovely dishes.. Tried to make simple stuff like aval payasam with less than desirable results and even tried my hand at vadais a couple of times!

MP was a pillar of support. Be it our favourite gooey semiya upma or the fluffy dhoklas or the soft rotis with onion tomato curry or poondu kozhambu.. He loved em all .. Which gave me all the more reason to try new stuff and impress the man. Well technically seeing him wipe off his plate and then move on to the pot itself gave me a sense of pride and satisfaction which I am not able to put down to words.. At the end of the day his wide grin and the twinkle in the eyes which told me that the dish was well made was all that mattered. I must say.. MP was extremely supportive and appreciative of everything I made and that alone was enough to motivate me to cook the next day. One does need motivation right?? I got so used to his appreciation that one day when he made fun of me for the gooey rice.. I went ballistic! So the blogger became the cooker..

This adventure into the kitchen revealed a new side of me – and this was a revelation to both me and the MP. After my first ever venture into the kitchen which was disastrous [to put it mildly] the poor soul had given up all hope on me. Yes I enjoyed cooking a lot but I still missed this space and my ranting..

And now there’s a change of scene and mindset.. Although my love for the kitchen hasn’t diminished a bit.. Here’s hoping I get around to airing more thoughts and rants right here..

PS: I went back and read this post. I felt it didn’t make much sense and wasn’t “coherent” enough. Here’s hoping this attempt would remove the block and let the words flow..

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